


I am reading a book that EVERY MOTHER SHOULD READ! It is called, "Calm My Anxious Heart" by Linda Dillow. Now- don't pass it by just because it has the word "anxious" in the title! It is more about being 100% content in the role that God, the "Blessed Controller" of our lives have given us. (1 Timothy 6:15) It reminds us that discontentment (about the weather, our bodies, whatever) is truly an UNHOLY habit that we, as women, fall into. I have been really trying this summer to be a more patient and calm mom and to keep my household in order. Those things are a HUGE challenge for me, especially doing all of that with a demanding child.
But God is using this book to teach me a lot of things that I need to be as a wife and a mother.
I will end with one of my conversations with Hollyn. She had been sent to her room for being very defiant. She usually screams and kicks the door while she is supposed to be sitting on her bed and thinking about why she is in there. This time she sat quietly on her bed the ENTIRE time. I was watching her on the video monitor, shocked at what I was seeing. I entered her room and she had her head in her hands. I truly thought this was going to be one of my best parenting moments because she was taking me seriously and obeying. I said, "Hollyn, what are you doing?" She said, "Thinking." I am so excited to hear what she is thinking about and get the apology that I deserve! I said, "That's good! Tell me what you were thinking." She says, "Chickens! I was thinking about baby chickens on a farm and how they hatch. They hatch out and yell "BAAAAWK BAAAAAAAWK BAAAAAWK!" By this point she is standing up and flapping her arms like a chicken. And just like that, my little parenting moment was ruined.
2 comments:
I never read your blog posts that I don't get the best giggle out loud. In addition to Hollyn's outrageous adventures, what I love most is your honesty and authenticity. Logan and I were having a very deep conversation this past weekend about parenting. He was asking me why I chose to handle some of my parenting moments the way I did. I told him two things. One, although I was rarely sure exactly what the "right" thing to do was, I was always certain prayer was my best offense and my best defense. Two, I quoted 1 Corinthians 15:10 - "But by the grace of God, I am what I am." I love the MSG version, too. I've clung to that verse many times when I was desperately searching for the right way to parent my boys. God, only by Your grace will I be good enough to be the mom my boys need, only by Your grace. Hugs, sweet friend! Thanks for sharing your heart!!
What a funny story at the end, I laughed out loud, as usual! And I'm SO glad that you have found a pediatrician who has listened to you and understands! I look forward to hearing what they find from the sleep study.... that is, if she sleeps during it. lol! :) I'm so happy for you that you feel normal again, I know it's been a challenging 3 years for you. Oohh but the stories you will have to tell her future husband and future children. :)
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